Hello hello! I know, it has been a long time since I posted anything here and if you notice, all of my other posts have disappeared. To be honest, I thought about shutting this blog down. I had a very rough end to 2013, and to be honest I wasn’t sure if I would ever come back. However, I thought about this blog constantly and the people who I have interacted with thanks to it and I knew I would eventually come back. I missed posting about my day to day happenings. I missed posting on my other blog to show how Noah has grown from an infant to a toddler, full of independence, curiosity and the desire to make mama pull her hair out.
So I’m sure some of you are wondering why I was gone. Well, let me just say that marriage is hard. And when you marry someone from another culture, certain things may compound the problem. Then you add a new baby, stretched finances, lack of time and energy to the mix and what you get is a separation. Minsung and I separated in early October and I decided that I needed to leave in order to get some perspective for myself and decide whether I wanted to stay in this marriage or whether I wanted to cut my losses and go. Physically, emotionally, mentally…all the -ly(s), Minsung and I had never been so far apart before. Things were done by him and said by me that threatened to rip us apart permanently. Yet, here I am reporting that we are still together and fighting to get back to the happy couple we once were.
I am not back to 100%. I still suffer from the lingering effects of post-partum depression. For a few weeks it was hard for me to even get out of bed in the morning. Noah would wake up and I would lay on the couch or the floor until my mom returned home from work. I found myself driving aimlessly praying for a sign for what to do. After being apart for a month, Minsung and I talked and decided to fight for our marriage, and so Noah and I returned home. I am currently looking for a job and working to salvage my grades for my masters program. Noah is continuing to flourish, though we have moved into the separation anxiety phase which is not fun in the least bit.
I am working on reclaiming my identity, losing the baby weight which crept back up thanks to the craziness of the past few months and finding a job that I can feel at least partly proud of. This blog will still discuss what life is like being an African-American woman married to a Korean man, but it will also be expanded to include the fun I’ve been having with losing weight, growing my natural hair out and any other tidbits I find entertaining. I hope that I haven’t lost all of my audience in my absence and I look forward to catching up with everyone.